swtbug

Why do I always fight with every1 ? And why do I always say yes when it's NO I hear in me! Isn't this strange! My sister keeps on saying that I don't have an attitude not a strong one! I know what I have been through in my life made me the way I am now and I told her thats why am like this!.

But she looked me in the eye with this surprised look and said "What you have been through would make any1 strong and secure not weak like you are now!"

*Sighhhh* I don't know why am weak seriously, I need a total attitude makeover but I have tried for years and I can't!

I do trust myself though and I believe in me big time. But I can’t protect myself cos any tinny shit hurts me so bad.

That’s why I have a bad relationship with dad and mom; I can't forget their wrongs nor can raise their good deeds cos they haven’t got much into my account!

Am I evil, not really diary? I love mom and dad but I know mother loves me a bit and dad’s heart doesn’t beat for me no more!

I guess the world has bigger problems then mine; I can’t even enjoy reading the daily newspaper without reading those war and hunger issues!

Am way better then a lot of others out there and seriously am happy like this!